I got an email today where someone left a comment asking what I believe in now.
I don’t really feel the need to obsess anymore about mormonism, so I (obviously) haven’t posted on this blog in a very long time. But I don’t want to leave my curious questioner hanging, so here I am, making a brief reappearance.
I believe in goodness. Honesty. Kindness. Love. Laughter. Joy. Truth. Friendship.
I don’t have any opinion on the existence of a god or gods. I figure that what happens after I exit this life will make itself plain once I exit this life. Contrary to the opinions of some good mormons I know, the lack of a belief in any kind of a god didn’t automatically turn me into an immoral so-and-so who lies, cheats, steals, and does all manner of inquities. It turns out that believing in a god was never what kept me from doing those things to begin with.
I believe in living with integrity. This was something I strived for as an active mormon and never felt I achieved, because I was always painfully conscious of how poorly I measured up to what were supposed to be my beliefs and standards. Now I can honestly say that my beliefs and standards are right in line with my words and actions. That’s a great feeling, let me tell you.
I believe in living a good life, and being a good person, because that’s the kind of person I want to be. I’m motivated out of love, and out of a desire to be a positive influence in the world, instead of out of fear.
I hope that helps answer your question. If it doesn’t, or if you have more questions, please don’t hesitate to leave another comment, or you may also email me at aintnomonomo(at)gmail(dot)com.